Don't do that, you have to remain optimistic!  Sure, there's a lot of stuff that isn't exactly what you want, but there are a ton of really good ideas.  And hey, if you lack optimism, there's quite a few tools out there that will help you write your own language - LLVM chief among them.  It seems interesting to note that, in the vein of game development, NVIDIA's CUDA compiler is written on top of llvm.  https://developer.nvidia.com/cuda-llvm-compiler

  When you're about to give up, try to remember that you're living in 'the future' and the idea of creating your own language to solve a problem like yours isn't quite so crazy as you might have been led to believe.

  Then again, there's Haskell, which might very well be a good solution these days.  There's a 4 year old thread on SO at the bottom of this message if you're curious.  Haskell is my #2 language, especially when speed is a concern.

  I had thought I had grown out of evangelizing languages but here we are: Haskell is worth the effort, but that's just my opinion.